I have learned over time who I can count on and who I can’t. I don’t have a lot of people in my life that I really can call “friend”. People that say they have a load of friends are either kidding themselves, or pretty much spread themselves so thin, they are not a true friend to all of their “friends”.
When I call someone my friend, they are someone extremly special to me. Someone that I can call in the middle of the night and cry on their shoulder and I know they will listen. A friend is also someone that I know I can share my most wonderful news with and they will celebrate with me as well.
I have found that most “internet friends” are really just acquaintances that you enjoy talking to but probably in real life, wouldn’t have to much to do with. While they are fun to chat with online and talk to via email, how many do you really have a close relationship with? I am lucky to have found one very special friend just like that and I thank God each day for this wonderful person. Sometimes meeting someone in person will change your attitude toward them for the good or worst. Sometimes it is not anything you say or do during your time together, sometimes it can be something physical about you that turns them off about you as well. This has happened to me before and it hurts.
I have found that discussion boards are pretty much the same amount of shallowness. No matter what discussion board I belong to, I have found this to be true on all of them. There are those in the “in” crowd that if you post something, you will get a lot of responses, but then you see some that will post something and while a lot of people might view it, not one person will post anything to it. Why is that? Is it because that person is not part of the “in” crowd and just like in high school if you were one of the popular pretty people and you showed any interest to someone that was considered a “freak” or maybe one of the less pretty people, your friends looked down on you and pressured you stop being a friend to them? People post things on discussion boards because they find them interesting and want to share them with their fellow members. It makes them happy or smile and think it might make their fellow members smile as well. I have had many members tell me that they get frustrated at this act and I tell them, don’t worry about it. Do it for yourself and while they might not post, it doesn’t mean they don’t enjoy it, but I do in a way understand their frustration. Usually a lot of time and thought goes into a feature or thread that is started but because they are not so popular, it goes looked upon blind eyes.
On the flip side, sometimes I think that people kiss butt because they are intimidated by someone that is very charismatic and they are afraid of rocking the boat. People lose themselves when they allow themselves to get to that point. We live in a free country and we should be able to agree to disagree without having fear of being ridiculed, banned, or shunned by the masses. I think that if people were mavericks and learn about people based on their own views and not the views of others, they might find the person that they have judged are not the person that they were led to believe by others.
I have tried really hard to let go of biases that I have had against some people over time. Some have spoken pretty ill about me to others but if those that were made to hear the forked tongue about me and judged me based on that information, then so be it. I can’t force someone to see the real me. I am not going to pretend to be someone I am not. I am not going to smile to your face and then speak ill of you. Life is too short and besides, I am a horrible liar. Like one member of Bonanza Brand told me one time when we talked about this very issue, if you can’t say something nice, its better to not say anything at all.